I just came bck from samtan holiday trip with my family this late afternoon n guess what?! i have just fallen in LOVE…yes? oh well you may be asking with who? hahahah…oh it’s not a who….I’ve fallen in LOVE with the BEACH! it was my 1st love…i guess nothg in this world could ever replace the special position this beach has in my vacation…it’s full of serenity n you could just felt the sovereignty  of the Almighty…I missed those soft n slumber beds…i just couldn’t undersntd…i’ve been to many resorts n hotels but none were as special n  as attractive as this1…i love the chalet! although the fair seems to be kinda exp but i still reckon it’s so much worth! I love the sound of the waves & breezing wind…it was so windy and cool! i wish i could just stay there forever!  no worries and no anxiety there!so nice n sweet~

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This morning I went
to church at abt 11am. Today pastor din’t share any sermon but invited 3 church
members to share their testimonies n encourage the congregation. half way
through the service, I suffered from menstrual pain. The pain started gradually
and it was like the outpouring of the wave inside my lower abdomen. As I listen
to their sharing 75 person of them was about healing. And God did remind me to
hold on n to endure the pain. My common reaction would be thinking of taking
menstrual pills as a solution cos when it comes to workday I have to consume it
to stop the pain immediately or else I could not perform in my workplace. But
today as I was at church it was my 1st attempt not to take any pills and I
endure till the service was over. Along the way, I am really encouraged relief
although physically I’m still struggling the menstrual pain. I went to the
toilet twice feeling like puking and squatted in pain and pleading to God to
give me strength to overcome my pain n I must be able to endure till the
service was over. After 3hrs of pain…Indeed, my ears were blessed with great
testimonies and although my body was very week I’d take these ppl’s sharings as
a motivation not to give in. I went back home took some hot drink, ate some
‘kuih’ then I slept flat on my bed for 3 hours. This time I told myself I will
not take any menstrual pills to stop the pain…I wanna belief in God again he
will deliver me from this pain. The moment I laid on my bed, the severe pain
was gone! Praise God!

On last fri nite before
I pray, I felt a heavy prompt in my heart that without realizing I’d compare
myself with others again. Deep within my heart I told God that I no longer
sense that I’m fully utilizing my skills n talents. I questioned God within my
small voice, ‘what is my talent? What is my passion? Why did I feel that I’m
living in no ways of direction & find no good things about myself’? I feel I’m
a loafer & worth nothg. It might be of the long-break in college, students
are having their final sem break for approximately 4weeks, almost like 1 month
timeframe…that was too long for me.

The question keep
popping out, ‘what have I done with the gift God has given me? Did I make use
of it? Or have I wasted it away’? after a few seconds laying down on bed, I
felt the urge to open ‘the daily bread’ ( haven’t been reading bible fr a long
while) I’d to admit that I have become lazy.

As usual, I’d
browsed through the topic index to search on related matters. My eyes spotteda
word ‘GIFTEDNESS’. Thus, I was very impatient as I read the articles it does
refreshed my spirit & give me strength. Reminding me that God creates
everybody, everything under & above the earth for its own purposes n
reasons. Nobody is created out of his mistakes or error cos God will never ever
make any mistake. One thing really surprises me was that particular ‘Giftedness’’
page was dated exactly as present > 17 JAN 08 (thurs). I wasn’t aware of it.
He says that I am not a useless person. I’m so consoled in my souls. Later it
led me to read the book of Romans chap 12. but just before I turned on the
bible… my heart keeps telling me that I needed to renew my mind and no longer
follow the pattern of the world. And there it was in Chap 12 there was a verse
revealed to me the same message about renewing your mind, do not follow the
pattern of the world. I’m grateful to God that He still speaks to me although
my heart has gone far from Him. 1 of my new year resolutions 4 this year is
asking God not to let me stray away from Him cos I know my desire for Him has
greatly decreased.

Last year has been
a year full of shocking news and storms in one’s life. Have been attending
2weddings and receiving so many wedding cards from relatives, friends and pp
lard us. The ppl surrounding us are getting attached and engagement ahead has
been planned this outlook no longer a surprise to me. At the starting point I have
to admit that I was being pressured in this area by my peers and relatives. My 1^st
respond was why is the rush? Why do u have to rush into relationship just becos
every1 else is getting into it? If one gives in just becos of social pressures
then our motive to get into a relationship is it just because we do not want to
be left behind? Does it mean that the real motive behind is just to prove to
others we are in the flow? If it is so, then what is the exact meaning of love?
Loving some1 for others to see? Loving some1 for selfish motive? Examine ourselves…before
we could love others, we gotto learn to love and appreciate ourselves 1^st.

Once a brother
really taught me what was it like to be a loving person. I could never forget the
time that we had the tender care that he had on me just like his own sister. By
the way, in any boy gal relationship it should always starts from being a
frend. He let me know what is it rely like to be CARED, CONSULTED, sharing the
JOY n laughter together. He is never stingy with his shower of care n love
towards any1 he would consider them as sister or brother. He made me realized
that there is still good n decent men on this earth although you’ll hear lotsa
saying that the goodmen have all died. Some even say all the goodguys have
become extinct. Nonetheless, he is the 1^st one that appears into my
life to broke that old sayings. Although I would consider him as almost perfect
but there were moments that he proved to me that he is not a perfect man like
(Christ) and yet he is purely a loyal, faithful, loving, cherishing, devoted,
humble, understanding, considerate person who I would label as ‘DECENT’ guy.

He would act very
silently from behind to support you and find time to encourage you. Other than
God, he could be the guy who allows me to know what was it like to be secure in
a man’s arm.

Hearing upon that
he might be getting married soon somewhere this year is something that I would
feel deeply happy for him although how I’d ever wished the bride was me. Wherever
I go, wherever I am his image will never be vanished from my eyes and his love
for me will remain forever in my heart. Pray that he will have a good plan for
his future marriage and family. May God bless him abundantly ^_^

If man live on earth without vision will
become void. This whole year has been a year of revolving myself of knowing the
principle of ‘when I am weak, I am strong in You. This refers to the condition
of my physical condition and it also made me think that I am able when I dwell
in the Lord. Many ‘bad’ things have happened in my work place this year such as
stealing cases, cheating, fraud and empty promises from the above authority. Procrastination
in management and no-basis rumours spreading around like viruses. Some created
havoc and made the whole world with no peace.

Many employees who were either senior or
junior than me had already left the company and some are in the process of
quitting as well. Situation likewise isn’t healthy but as for me… there is
always something I could give thanks about joining this company if I take time
to be still and be grateful. Yes, sometimes we could not run away from the fact
of grumbling and criticizing BUT after that there is no peace n the situation
is still the same. So why would not I just stop that grumbling and reflect on
the good side. I am grateful to have known my colleagues and although most of
them are more junior than me. We learn to give and take in some ways. We
laughed and sing at luxury time. It was fun though! I also find it a joy seeing
‘problematic’ students have been waken up and realized that they have actually been
‘sleeping’ and wasting away their juvenile years. Most of them are really
carefree type and never bother to worry about survival cos everythg they needed
was all well-prepared.

Christmas is coming soon, admitting that
my zeal for the lost souls is not that heavy I find it very appalling towards
the Lord. Knowing the command of the Lord is to share His love and hope for
others but many times I discover that the people ard me is not in need of such
love. Sometimes I do not see the need in them cos they flourish too much in
their own things and live in abundance. Actually when this case is to be
analyzed the problem of not having any burdens to save soul is becos there is
envy in me. Yep, envy n jealousy are the 2 main things that keep me stagnant. I
can’t change my sinful thoughts but the Holy Spirit can. Before entering into a
new year…praying to God that He will help to deliver me from these sins. 

Best Actor & Actress of de year!

It has been a while I have not entry my blog.
This afternoon wasn’t feeling well due to PMS, swallowed 2 capsules of
mefenemic acid (some kinda painkiller) perhaps could stop the pain of my lower abdomen.
It took abt 3hrs to take an effect to stop the pain. I had not had any period
pain for the past 3 months it was smooth-sailing cos I did consumed Chinese medication
to improve my blood circulation. Too bad this month I had not continue to take
the prescription.

Today we had our academic meeting at
about 5.00 pm (off duty). Most of the staffs dint had a good instinct what was
gonna took place. It was very different this time cos our superior also ‘invited’
the non-academic staffs to join in our meeting. Peculiar enough cos eversince
the structure of the company has changed the non-academic staffs have never involved
in any of our matters. Why do they care by the way…

1^st of all I presumed that it
must be the ‘new superior’ who could not handle these bunch of lovely
lecturers, she has to somehow give the honor to the ‘old superior’ to ‘RESOLVE’
many ‘UNRESOLVE’ matters!

Both these so called ‘SUPERIORs’ should
be given the best title of the ‘best actor n actress’ of the year 2007! Reasons
being are very simple… each time when they proclaimed that they wanna helped us
to resolve a matter it will never be solved. The problems will still come bacj
to us, funny indeed! The old superior lagi hebat trying to tell us that he is
still in charge of everything. Sigh~just let him be…who else is more childish
than he is.

1. Pertaining the RL matter she stated
that we could actually claim it if we have to work on off SATs…yeah right only
if we don’t have class, but as the matter of fact non of my weekdays could be
replaced with RL cos everyday I have classes except for Thur morning no class,
that was my only free time…which still means no RL for me.

2. corporate training we requested that the person-in-charge
has to inform us about 2-3weeks earlier so that we could do advance preparation
to teach not like 2-4days, in their mind set it is strange enough for them to
think that we are not teaching the corporate ppl fulltime, we are actually
have to be accountable to those DIP students… what about them??? The superiors
gave excuses they’d acted such way becos it’s an AD-HOC basis thingy so it is
very impossible to let us know in advance. EXCUSE ME, stop crapping ard! If you could
have done a proper procedure and instructions to the CLIENTs I do not belief
that they would simply choose a date (just like casting lots) for the training to be carried out for their employees. What do you think we are? A

TEMPLE

excuse doesn’t work for me. WHY don’t you just say that the ‘PERSON-in-CHARGE’
isn’t SMART ENOUGH to handle those stuff? WHY don’t you just say YOUR person in
charge doesn’t know HOW TO PLAN A GOOD STRATEGY TO alliance with UR CLIENTS? JUST
ADMIT IT or opt to QUIT nia! No need to waste time… lang fei chin chun! (demeaning
your youthfulness)

3. pertaining internal-staff training – we suggested
that lecturers should have been sent to attain varies teaching seminars or
talks to improve on our teaching skills cos we aren’t given the avenue for such
training. When talking abt this I felt very shameful … the superior said WE
LECTURERS should REQUEST wor..we are the one who should ASK for it, if you don’t
ask you don’t get it wor, so we are to be blamed… EXCUSE ME, the company
claimed itself to be AN IT INTITUTE , obviously in a higher learning institute
like U, takkan la you want us to teach you how to provide an avenue for ur
academic staffs to attain seminars? Don’t you think its very foolish!? IMAGINE A 3 year-
old son telling his father which play schools he or she should ENROL wor… cos
the SON KNOWS BETTER THAN THE FATHER wor… iF the 3-yr-old son doesn’t request,
it is the son’s fault ..the son should be BLAMED instead… HOW RIDICULOUS!

4. there were so many things we voiced out but IT WAS JUST LIKE A
BULLET THAT HEADS TO NO BULL’S EYES! worn-out to mention here…

5. at the end of the day… the award winning category for the BEST ACTOR &
ACTRESS should be given to Mr ‘HE’ and Ms ‘SHE’… waaahhhh so BRAVO! HUGE
Applause for them!

The meeting adjourned
at abt 6.35pm approximately 1 hr plus…meeting like these are full of craps n unresolved
matters… the meeting has never come to a better solution at all… a waste of time,
energy, air-cond and electricity…

Tea for Sweaty Palms and Soles

Sweaty hands can be embarrassing, and sweaty feet can lead to foot odor and
increase the risk of athlete?s foot.

One dermatologist we consulted offered the following home remedy: Boil five
tea bags in a quart of water for five minutes. When the solution cools, soak
your hands or feet for twenty to thirty minutes nightly.

Tea contains tannic acid, which is also found in commercial products such as
Ivy Dry, Zilactol, and Zilactin. The astringent properties of tannic acid are
thought to be partly responsible for its antiperspirant action.

cited from a health website: personally i am severe hyperhidrolisis palmar or in other phrase it’s recognize as sweaty palms…having been facing this embarrassing problem since i am born to this earth…rely find it a great discomfort…everythg that u touched on can be ‘FLOODED’…hope that this home remedy could help up my shameful situation  =)

When I was just a litt’ kid money used to
be an issue to me. I grew up in a situation whereby almost eachday of my life
all I could hear from the adults around me was ‘I owed ppl a lot this months’
‘the bills haven’t pay yet’ ‘monthly income for this month is not enough’ la…bla..bla…
and the list could just go on and on and on…

Haha… There was once I could remember the
1^st day of registration in uni my dad could not afford to pay the 1^st
payment of the uni fee cos that time I wasn’t aware that I could apply for
study loan (ptptn). My dad went all the way to his frend and lent money for my
uni fee payment. I almost could not complete my registration due to
insufficient of amount. I was so tensed and sweated like what while I was
lining up for the queue outside the bank corridor. Praying that my dad could
get the money from his frend and reach unimas as soon as possible.

Money to me is always an issue. My family
doenst own much property not even a house. The house that im staying is a rent
house. My actual house is at matang jaya but its still under housing loan.

I am not grumbling that I’m facing great
financial debts here. I have sufficient food to eat each day and I am not
lacking of a meal. In this case, I am considered very blessed. But since I grew
up at such condition, I could be very particular and stingy at times. It’s good
I thought since I will not learn to be spendthrift.

I have a discriminate thought against ppl
who came from rich background and who call themselves as elite class citizen
(dun make me puke) especially those who like to look down on others and are
insensitive when money are tight. Most of the time, the young

ones from wealthy bckgrd they would never
be bothered abt how much they spend on food eachday, bills, study, housing, car
loans and daily expenses. Not having any urgency to spend economically. Sigh~

Recently the radio station has been
airing an announcement from the government board motivating the public to
invest in the 3^rd party unit fund. Yeah out of a sudden, I have this
plan and determine to do some investment and savings for my future. I used to
think well as long as I have faith in God He will lead me. Yeah I should have
faith but if faith doesn’t come with action it is just equal to nothing. It’s
not too late to discover that, it’s just the beginning of investment.

This kinda investment is tangible but
1day I came across an article abt a comment from an experienced secondary sch
teacher she cited that throughout her teaching carrier it is actually a
long-term investment on what she is doing. As she claimed that her carrier path
provide her the avenues to do long-term investment on her pupils’ lives which I
tot was incredible and inspiring! Although u can’t see the immediate result but
this intangible investment will be an impact for lifetime. And from then I knew
that I will choose education as my carrier path till further adjustment. Both are
equally important… I have chosen the 1^st one which is intangible but
for a lifetime impact and now I plan to start off with the next tangible investment
^_^

There are times you might wonder why a man could have an affair/marriage
problem outside his family somewhere along in the relationship process. The
construction of a man’s emotion & body are completely separated portions,
not like woman their emotions & body are so much attached, and it is kinda
hard to draw a line between them.

Since the beginning of creation, God has created man from the dust, if
you translate into mandarin [tu] it sounds like he is an orthodox. It could
also reason why some men are insensitive [tu tu] or sometimes you call them
blur blur.

Most women
will address them as not sensitive, particular or caring enough towards them. Where
by woman was created out of the man’s ribs. This portion was filled with thousands
of blood vessels, nerves, arteries and full of flesh which is absolutely sensitive.

This explains women are naturally-borne sensitive, detailed and
emotional all the time. So, since man’s construction is different from woman,
when a man falls in love with a woman he is truly sincere and his emotion is totally
involved. But when a man accidentally gives in to some temptation of the body
and having an affair with another woman due to lack of self-control (whom he
might not love sincerely with his heart) probably a 1-nite-stand thingy, startlingly
when he is aware of what had happened the next day, maybe he found himself guilty
and return back to his spouse and tell the wife he has regretted and asked for
forgiveness cos the person he love is still her. In this situation, of course
the man is found guilty.

Therefore, a married-man could possibly commit an affair with other
woman without truly loving her [3^rd party] and yet loves his real
wife cos his emotion and physical connection operates separately. But that doesn’t
mean men could take this as a reason to be unfaithful to his wife.