Cheryl’s Journals

‘she’ had
been away from home for 2weeks and inside my heart I dint’ even sympathized her
cos she had caused all the hassles n arguments with my low tau. When she was at
home, I could only hear non-stop shrieking voices from mon-sun oh should I say
from the moment I wake up ready for work. My mood would definitely be greatly
affected. All the more, frequent complaint abt those household jobs. In
actually facts most of the tasks could be solved without much trouble but the
moment she sees it, no others words could come out from her mouth except
putting the blame on me for not completing the tasks. She has disappointment me
many times and it doesn’t matter to me anymore.

When she
was at home, I don’t feel like I am being loved as a child. Whenever she was
there I felt being threaten. I felt a strong sense of condemnation n not being
appreciated in her presence. It was weird that I always have to ‘pamper’ her
instead of she pampers me.

Truthfully
speaking when she was ‘off for holiday’ for the past 2 weeks… my home was
filled with peace and I could gain bck my self-esteem n self-value. Even my
close frends could testify that plus my younger brother became very helpful in
doing housework for the family…amazing isn’t it? That is why I never pleaded
her to come back home…cos I finally had the peace of mine. Who on earth would
ask for some1 inconsiderate, annoying, complaining and troublemaker to be part
of your family!? NONE I belief!

And there
it was, when the home wasn’t filled with love n warmth… I met this frend who I
just known for 2months+. The friendliness n caring attitude that this frend has
towards me make me seems to be very special n I somehow gain my self-worth in
doing my daily tasks. In my working ethic, in my extend to care for my frends
and trying to be nice to the people ard me. I had a very fruitful chat with
this frend.

We discuss
abt personal encounter with the Lord and share thots in encouraging 1 another.
I found it very meaningful n fun! This frend has a great sense of dry humor n
very sincere towards any1.

Although
the meeting was mainly on corporate issue n I knew very clearly that the action
this frend carried out was due to appreciation towards my help. A very
appreciative person. Treated me meals n even showed me the location his family
is doin business n let me try the food for free. I am very thankful n grateful.

I was so
touched by the warmth n giving attitudes. Very generous with endless smiles. At
1^st I felt abit awkward cos I wasn’t used to an opposite gender

frend who
could treat me so nice n friendly. (I might misunderstood his friendly
intentions)Very bubbly n adorable personality. Although I know that this shiny
sanguine temperament in him is very natural and it seems to be a normal thg
that it could be extended to everyone else.

But
whatever it is… the experience is somethg that help me to realize my personal
potential n self-worth. I really thank God for knowing this adorable frend. I hope that our frendship will last forever  ^_^
May God bless him abundantly.

te extraño, eres guapo (*_*)

~ by cheryl82 on March 3, 2008.