Cheryl’s Journals

This is only the 1st week of class and i was almost or to
say fall sick already.my gum swollen, and the bones of my face also feel
painful, even my whole body is aching especially in aircond room if possible I prefer
the temperature to be more than 25 celsius or just cooling air otherwise I’d be
chilling in cold, i hav a minor rheumatism too these fewdays upon my hand and
leg muscles, the worst part is my lungs, im down with sore throat n dry cough
again. Every part of my body is sensitive, sometimes I wonder why God creates
me in such a way, although I have improved a lot compare to lastime. I had severe
gastric and running nose when I was at the age of 8-16 that time I needed to
take medication continuously without stop. Once I stop the diseases would come
back. Thank God, He healed me. That I no longer hav to take medication for
gastric and cynus. I am still struggling with my health eachday of my life…
sometimes it feels sad that I could not eat too heaty, oily food like KFC or
McDonald or any food that is cooked by frying method. My throat will be 1^st
part to be infected then it leads to other sicknesses like coughing, pain on
eye socket and bla bla n bla…

why I am not well this week most probably becos of the food
intake I took last week. I ate too much hot n spicy food like mee curry, fried
chickens, fried drumstick, eat ice kachang, lotsa ice-creams, instant mee with
wine… sigh…I should have restrict myself from taking all those foods. See, that
is why sometimes I have to resist from taking all those so-called ‘unhealthy’
food. It is not that I’m very fussy or picky…I am force to be choosy n picky
upon food that I need to take or not to take. Due to poor immune system, I have
to be discipline in this term. Sometimes I rely admire the ppl ard me, they
could eat n eat n eat n eat n eat n eat n eat I mean just eat whatever they
want as long as their body still can handle n yet they do not fall sick. Like my
mum whnever I saw her eating those not-so-healthy-food with belacan, laksa,
seafood, prawn paste n etc when I smell the aroma I do like to eat those food
but I know I cannot take too much. Even peanuts, pistachio, chocolates, pizzas,
I like to eat them too but each time if anybody will offer me that in my mind I
desire2 eat but then later my conscience told me if I take in these thgs too
much I will put myself in a risky situation to fall sick again. Due to that I have
to reject not becos I din’t give face to the person who offers but I just could
not bear the risk to fall sick. Who likes to be sick? You lost appetite, no
energy, no concentration n you cant even communicate well tht is the worst part
for me as my job requires me to talk n give speech. Every part of

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body will suffers
together then physically I am not productive. The moment I am not productive I don’t
feel like I am worth doing anythg. Plus this sem will be a real FRANTIC sem,
very short only 3months and I have 23 teaching hrs eachweek. Those students who
are taking final project, not only they themselves are gonna feel oppressed, me
too I have to brainstorm lotsa thgs with EACH 1 of them. It’s just like i
became their head and they are my hands n legs kinda thg. Eventhough it does
not have theory test but the process is going to be very straining.

Thank God, although I am so tempted to take sick leave like
today but still I could endure the sickness cos my weakness is made perfect in
His strength. Pray hard.

~ by cheryl82 on June 12, 2007.