Cheryl’s Journals

This morning at abt 10am attended my aunt’s funeral. At 1^st
I tot I will be okie at the corpse’ resthouse in GH. My aunt wasn’t close with my
family cos my mum was adopt to another family since baby so although this late
aunty was from the same bloodstream we only met like once in a yr during CNY. My
aunt’s death was published on newspaper [sin chiew jit poh] the frontpage of
the headlines yesterday. While I was waiting for the funeral ceremonial to
begin I saw many of my relatives waiting there also to pay their last respect
to her, the moment I saw my cousins crying sorrowfully my tears had started to
form like rushing water too from the waterfalls. Some1 else were there to hug
them and consoled them. I was kinda numb and dumb not knowing what I should do
to comfort them. My heart could only pray silently and in solidity so the Lord
would ease their pain. At the point where both son n daughter were given to pay
the last respect on the coffin my cousin grabbed whole of the edge of the
coffin and wouldn’t let go she was so much in grief… me n my sis quickly went
beside her and held her arms tightly and comforted her. At this time, my heart
was even heavier and felt so burden to see her upon the bereavement. I tried to
hold on my tears not to burst together with her cos I have to support her as
she can’t seem to walk properly…her body was really weak and my heart could
feel the hurts so deep that I was actually grieving inside. The coffin has to
be closed and sent into the furnace. As the carcass van drove off that was the
end of the funeral.

Me n my family cam bck and as usual each of them have to go
for work where I was left at home…my mind was still full of my cousins’ grieving
and sorrow. I felt extremely pitiful for them, knowing that becoming an orphan isn’t
an easy thing to cope. I went into my room somehow I just could not hold on my
tears…this time I fall down and cried in tears. I cried not only out of normal
loss but the pouring in me was that I knew the fact where did her soul is going
to be. I felt so sorry for her as she never open her heart to the Lord. The bible
says, ‘Jesus is the only way, the truth and the life, no 1 can come to the
Father in Heaven except through Christ’. Knowing the truth is always HURTING. Knowing
that there is still an eternal road after death is a fact. I wished I could
force her to accept the LORD so that she could receive eternal life in heaven
but as the LORD has given FREEDOM for mankind to choose we cannot force ppl to
accept the LORD that is REAL LOVE. God made us different from all the
livestock, He makes us to have rational and mind so that we could make our own
choice. Otherwise heaven will be full of zombies who would just follow blindly
without having a real relationship with Jesus. It must be from a willing heart.
That particular person must confess in their heart that they want to an eternal
life in heaven and receive Jesus as their saviour… then only they will be
saved. That is why Christian always hav this burden to tell ppl abt the
goodness and wanna share this eternal gift to those who hav never heard of the
gospel. But the bad news is how many of them are willing to accept this
WONDERFUL GIFT? Hell is created by God to cast the DEVIL in2 it when JUDGEMENT
DAY comes. In the spiritual realm, the Devil & his demons are DECEIVING
MANY PPL in the WORLD to RUN after so may temporary things like the 3G = GOLD,
GAL/GUY & GLORY things that could only be seen with the eyes and forgetting abt
our spiritual hunger that will last forever. It is not a sin to run after all
these things as long as mankind do not idolize them more than God, the creator.
IT is never GOD’s intention to see all his creation (mankind) to go to HELL.
HELL IS MEANT FOR DEVIL. Why do I say when a soul lost without knowing the LORD
is becos the DEVIL has won a big numbers of God’s creation to follow HIM to
HELL. DEVIL IS EVIL. HE NEVER WANT PPL to go to HEAVEN. Now we are living in
the endtimes… THE DEVIL is SHORT oF time… HIS TIME is UP SOON cos we know that
JESUS will be coming for the 2ndtime to bring his sheep locks bck to HEAVEN. Everyday
as we see the newspaper and TV news, so many disastrous things are happening as
tripled times as be4. All sorts of crazy adulterously sins has become so
comman, the global teenage crime rates is increasing each day. Everythg we hear
from the news mankind has become more n more corrupted and immoral as compare
to 50-100 years ago. wake up ppl… we are all living in endtimes. If those who
have heard of the gospel, I beg u please call out the name of JESUS, cos only
HE could give us eternal life (our souls will live 4ever n ever n ever n ever
trillions years… just like the sand…can u count it? No if u keep imagining
eternity it’s out of human mind, there is no ending) so imagine if a soul is
tormented in HELL on the fire imagine the sufferings that u will gonna face…
that will be eternal regret)

~ by cheryl82 on May 30, 2007.