Deeply MIXED in emotions…
When I reached workplace this morning I was being deeply offended by the management regarding certain side teaching that I declined reason being I’m currently overloaded with final projects this sem n I have got 3subjects for final exam that I need to mark plus assessments, invigilation & some free course that I’ve to conduct for spm leaver on 21,22 & 23 may. I’d been oppressed by them without any valid reasons. I disapprove the part where they’d never face up to me abt this then simply stabbed at my back… of course I felt being lampoon. I’m not the type of person who couldn’t sit down and talk with but their methods of dealing things are too amateurish, they even sounded wanna threaten me to the point if I dint take up those training, they’d take disciplinary action. WAISEH~I was thinking do you hav to use this kinda way to ‘ENFORCE’ your employee to do ur SIDE income job!??! SIGH~was totally outraged by them. It has been so many times that I’ve to ‘swallow’ all the false accusations from them since lastyr when the recruitment team weren’t that many. Even if the wan me to take the job they also have to be considerate & see my freeslot then only I can take the job.
I owest tell myself if not becos for the sake of students I would hav resign very very soon. I rely dunno until when can I stand that ‘STINK’ management in my workplace.
Like today, after all the DCG students have finished their final presentation actually im really happy for them that they could reach up to this top point specially their advertising project many of them the sem4 & 5 can rely do well not forgetting sem 6 too. Mainly most of them are the reasons for me to keep on the race. I’m very impressed by their works n all the efforts they have put in. Seeing their works really would spice up the moment of joy in my workplace. At times I have to defend my students when they are being accused without solid reasons. I’m a person who belief in righteousness & justice. That is why when I deal things I would prefer 2have real confrontation than using the ‘backstabber’ method! It’s rely a slander!
Sometimes I’m really tired of being the middle person. At 1 time I rely have passions to build up the DCG program but in the other hand the authority I guess they had lost their minds or somethg keep oppressing the blame on us for not carrying out our duty well. Of course I’d be angry my human nature response was ‘revenge’ if compared to lastime I would have ask my dad’s old gangster to put fire on the somebody’s house or to punctured his/her CAR that offended me! But I knew deep inside my heart, that isn’t right…it’s sinful to do that… of course I wont do it cos it would only bring harm to myself n dunk myself into trouble… this is being unwise. Furthermore… im really drain up lately. Physically, mentally & spiritually.
I could be perceived as ‘lion’ because of my outward self-bringing but im very much a ‘kitten’ my inner self. Sometimes I also need encouragement… im rely desperate for the comfort in my LORD’s arm… as I read the scripture it says,
“ One of them will chase a thousand of you. Five of them will make all of you flee. You will be left like a flagpole on a distant mountaintop. But the Lord still waits for you to come to Him so that he can show you his love & compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for him to help them.” [Isa 30:17-18]
Today someone told me that the management accused the lecturers for starting all the complaints and troubles existed between the management n students~! Can you imagine tat? I said nothing and was not surprised at all. The person later told me that nobody trusted tat statement and actually asked me how the lecturers managed to swallow all these false accusations from the management? I am happy~! Our patience has finally paid off.. If we are not wrong, we have no fear with all the false accusations tat caused misunderstandings between the lecturers and students. Like the saying, “wat goes around, comes around” Now, the students finally saw the truth tat the lecturers were innocent and the management put all the blame on the lecturers to get the students’ support. Sad ppl… So cheer up! God is doing his role. We need to trust him and be patience.. okie? God bless.. ^_^
Liew said this on May 11, 2007 at 8:37 am