Am I not stressful…?
This week is the finalweek for my students to present their final presentation. i was so angered, surprised n wondered why everytime when the outcome questions hav been released to them as far as i could remember they are given 3wks long timeframe to complete their final project and the date of presentation was announced as early too but still when it comes to the actual day, again history repeat itself…every sem there seem to be the same bagde were the1 put me down and they will never get things done ON TIME!!! Not only that, it’s oredy considered too much that they never appear during the presentation… I wonder why these ppl can afford not to FEEL ENDANGERED when they aren’t even accountable or responsible to accomplish their work!?!?
Most of them claimed they rushed their work till very late like only sleep abt 3-4 hrs a day, well yeah so what!?!? They should be expecting it from themselves if their work isn’t finalized. By right they should have set their time apart, try their best effort to burn midnite oil no matter how muc they need to sacrifice all their fun, chatting, leisure, gamming or even DATING time! YES, just for the sake of their OWN GOOD n their FINALMARKS! At the end of the day, we lecturing only received responses like being blamed as ‘cruel’, ‘too much’, ‘inhuman’ for giving them so much works which caused them under so much stress?! EXCUSE ME, every end of sem it looked as if I’m the one turned out to be AS MORE STRESSFUL then them… everynite cannot sleep figuring how to access their marking component and have to find out ways n solution to assist them in their brainstorming sessions. Cracking head doin all the outline/outcome planning & showing them guidelines how to come out with their reports n stuff… not only that ive to key in all their outcomes all 5 classes each. I’ve abt 84 students in my list and imagine I’ve to key in 6 outcomes for each particular students 84*6 = 504times I need to key in repeating. The key-in mark was the final stage of marking and what about the accumulating, design n proofreading process?? How many times I need to assess their work? Am I not stressful everyday facing the same problematic students and pressured by the management of compiling, organizing all those LAN folders, conclusion, dividers and each lec has to complete 10 folders for each different subjects respectively. Am I not STRESSFUL???
I was rely stressed up especially starting lastweek. It’s enough stress to do my actual part n yet have to listen to all their personal rumours n bla la blab la….non stop all those nonsense are getting me down n crazy each day! Just get realistic if eachday one of my classes out of 84 of them come to you with their ‘problems’ or ‘excuses’ for not being able to complete their work, how many times my ears are bashed with ‘UNSOLVED’ stress!? Sometimes, I have to MOTIVATE them instead of jus scolding them and BE RELY PATIENCE with their ‘OVER PROBLEMATIC’ attitude!?!? Am I not STRESSFUL then!? In other words all the 84 if they hav 1 prob not solved everyday I have to carry that 84 problems bck home, AM I NOT STRESSFUL? Not only that I have to make sure other activities under DCG club is running and carried out well…. Am I not stressful!?!? Making sure the students pay fee, makin sure the bookins n reservation is done and blab la…. They never understand that I actually SHARE their stress with them!? I worry for them whter can pass or not?! Ive2 look things beyond n ahead try to analyze many facts n datas…. Am I not stressful!??! YES OF COURSE I am but this is life n my job prospect which by no choice I’ve to tackle them. I cant just give excuses to my boss saying I can’t do this becos of what I cant do that becos f that in the working world is not as friendly as what the students could comprehend it in college. We might be under the same roof but the scenario will be totally different.
I’m still wondering will I be able to stand this kinda pressure next sem as I will be teaching them ‘FINAL YR PROJECT’??? my heart has turned as frail as it is…loadsa students might be deceived by the way I present myself thinking tat im a very tough person but im not I’m just like any ordinary person only alitt’ extra-ordinary I guess cos I am given this privilege to battle against my poor immune system- that’s my health. I need to struggle & pray to God to give me strength eachday so that I can carryout my tasks accordingly. I’ve spent abt 600+ for medication/nutrition/health products since The begining Jan this year.
Dear Chea,
They are the little children who in need of your guidance n love. Maybe this is why you are in this career, so tat u can help mould them into a better person (eventho they deserve all the scoldings). Be patient and look at the purpose behind all these. There’s a reason why GOD place u here in the first place. They need u to save them. They have yet to realise that fact.
Liew said this on May 7, 2007 at 9:57 am