Family
Family is an important unit in the forming of a society. A healthy family unit is the key backbone to form a strong & stable country. Children are a gift from God to married couple. Therefore, in a family unit a child by right shall grow up healthily under the protection and covering from both parents. Without true love and cherished care, a child can never grow up healthily in a family be it in the aspects of emotions, psychology, spiritually & physically. Some ppl may be brought up in a not-so-good backgrd while others maybe brought up in a very well-mannered backgrd. Where as for me, I am the one who was brought up in a not-so-good category. Should I say it as unlucky or lucky? Well, according to my faith there is no such thing as unlucky. What I can sum up here is, in everything that happened in our life, it shall work best for those who God loves. He has reasons for us to be born in what type of family background, what clan we came from and even the genetic we will inherit.
I grew up in a family bckgrd that has no sense of security & self-assurance. My parents never seem to bother how I had been through in my studies, my health problem, my working life, my personal problem, spiritual-life or anythg that is very intimate to me. Instead of I tell them my problems; they are the ones who turn up bursting all their pressures to me. Then who should I share my problems with? Peculiar indeed! There tend to be strong barriers btwn parents-and-daughter relationship. Most of the time I feel stiff and not so transparent be4 them. I hid my emotions be4 their faces cos knowing that even when I voice out my anger, disappointments, hard feelings, they will not be able to ease my hurts & pain. They would never comprehend my strain & problems. I could not find rest and peace in sharing my heartfelt with them. My mum seemed to be siding her sons all the time like the Chinese saying, ‘chung nan ching niu’ which means only side the sons but despise the daughters. No matter how severe both my brothers did anythg wrong in the family or did any offence, my mum wouldn’t dare to scold them. My younger sis n I will owest be her target of accusation & victims of wrongdoing. We are never seemed to be appreciated by her. I am not trying to be self-pity here but I can be really assured that ONLY GOD KNOWS what I am going through for all this while. He is the ONLY ONE who could comprehend my deepest problems. He is the ONLY ONE who can feel what I felt. He is the ONLY ONE who would listen to all my complaints & grumblings. I really cannot imagine my life without JESUS, where & what would I end up to be?! He is the real SOURCE behind who gives me LOVE, STRENGTH, CARE, PEACE & JOY. He is the reason that I shall keep on finishing the different chapters on my life until I meet His face. The life that He gave me is a testing ground and preparation for eternity. I would keep my fingers crossed & determine to run a good race in spite of past failures or faults.
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